Tuesday 29 April 2014

The digital version

This is the digital version of my book: 




Key elements

Self reflection

The evaluation is exactly the end of my degree!! How emotional!!

This project has brought me a mixture of feelings and emotions from the moment when I came up with the idea and until I finished with it, so much stress like I never had but moments of happiness as well.

As I said in my critical reflection for the other module, this blog and the research that I have managed to do won't reflect the number of hours and sleepless nights I had this year working on my projects. I don't think I will ever do a perfect critical journal as I literally don't know how to. I don't like writing about someone else's work and coming to this blog to post every time I found something it's rather time consuming than helpful for me because when I do research I gather all the information in my head and then I work with that but a project is a project in the end.

I started the year with a lot of stress on my head because I had an idea at the beginning that wasn't exactly beneficial for me so I had to change it but because I was so enthusiastic about it, when I realized it's not good I got disappointed and from that moment on everything was a nightmare to me until I managed to find a path to follow. I changed so many ideas that I got so confused that I didn't have a clue what to do next which wasn't exactly ideal as time was running fast. It was so stressful and so many headaches followed that I wasn't able to focus properly because of that. But I knew I had to do it.

One day, I got so angry at myself that it just happened. I was back on track with new ideas and a pretty new project that was capable of being successful. I spent a lot of time digging in my past and talking to my mom about her life and researching to make sure this time I do something good.

When my friend Andreea agreed to help me with all the images I was relieved but I didn't know how it was going to be like: so many trips to London, waking up at 5 in the morning, carrying loads of stuff around London etc. but it was worth it.

To be able to have a good project, I had to ask people for permission to photograph in their places. I have met so many rude people, so many people that didn't even looked at us. I was a bit shocked but that's the reality, especially in London. Few people were nice there. You have to be the Queen for them to at least look at you. We had lots of doorsclosed in our faces but you know what? I never gave up!I was too ambitious and determined to do it to give up!!

This project showed me what it means to work hard to have a good outcome!! No matter the mark I get for it, I am proud  I managed to finish it on time!! I am ready to take on new adventures!!



Critical evaluation

The final book that I have managed to create illustrates the story of a woman, Andrea, who managed to succeed in her life even if she's gone through some difficult moments from time to time.

The book takes you on a journey, Andrea's journey, and presents the most critical moments in her life and the thoughts she has to deal with in each situation. The book presents images to show the journey of Andrea but it also contains text to present and emphasize her emotions and her thoughts. It is about what she is going through every time her obsessions step in.

In order to produce this project, I considered my life story, everything that happened until now. If at the beginning I wanted to make this project something general, I decided then to make it personal as this way it will be stronger in the end. I considered everything I have been through and all the critical moments in my life and I tried to use that to build my character, portrayed by my friend, Andreea.

In order to be able to take my character further, because I am no where near the age of my mother, I considered her life story as well because it is said that women have to look at their mothers and they will find out how they will be in the future which is true in a way or another; it depends on each person. All the obsessions that I have chosen are not inventions of my brain, are not jokes nor loss of time. They were created from real facts, real events that happened either in my life or my mother's or both combined.

I also have chosen to consider the message that the society we live in promotes, those superficial values that are supposed to be taken for granted. By mixing all these 3 "elements", I have managed to create scenarios in which Andrea portrays each obsession to her best.

I tried my best as well to research all these ideas and to make my life easier but in the end the key was in digging even deeper and considering all the details related to those 3 "elements".

The book portrays real emotions in a real time.

All the images are connected and they try to show a continuous story.There are various props that appear in more than one image to show continuity in the journey as for example the teddy bear.

 There is just one image in which another person appears because that is the most critical moment in her life that changes everything, changes Andrea's life. That's the point when Andrea goes back to normal, she is back on track. Because of that, I didn't want to have other people in the images - to show the importance of that moment.

Technically speaking, I went for natural light from  beginning till end. Because the story was real I didn't want to use artificial light to ruin the message. I didn't want to create false aesthetics. I wanted all to be natural.

I have chosen to make a book instead of prints because simple prints wouldn't have managed to tell my story properly. It would have looked incomplete.

Overall, I am proud of myself and I am very happy I managed to finally make a good project that will last. From being confused to actually having an outcome, I managed to see how it is and how a good project is done. No matter the mark I will get, I am proud of it and it means a lot to me because in the end, the images reveal a part of me as well!!


Sunday 6 April 2014

Saturday 5 April 2014

Page numbers

I didn't want to go for the usual and have page numbers on the left/right side of the page.











these are all drafts with different ways of putting the page numbers but I ended up with the last version


I didn't want the numbers to interfere with anything else and to distract the viewer so that's why I decided to put both on the left corner.